Thursday, December 3, 2020

REBUILD

 

When I read this verse from Isaiah, the first thing I think is that I need to rebuild who I am in order to fully participate in the rebuilding of the broader community. Only when I participate with God in making me who He made me to be can I help make this world more like it could be.

In many ways, I am already a different person than I used to be. Emotional armor that I needed to get through phases in my life has been shed. Behaviors have been learned and unlearned. I see the world and the people in it differently than I used to. I am not finished, but I am being rebuilt.

Our country has a breach in its very foundation. To repair the breach of racism is deep, hard and necessary work. And while I do need to work on identifying and rooting out racism in myself, my habits and my thoughts, I wonder if it's a cop out to say I have to rebuild myself before I participate in the rebuilding of my community.

I think a better approach in my mind, my heart and my hands would be to remember that as I am being rebuilt, I can rebuild my world. If I wait until I am fully repaired, restored and rebuilt, I will never be able to be a repairer of the breach. It must be both/and, not either/or.

May I be curious about the world around me. May I learn and change. May I be rebuilt and may I work to rebuild the systems and communities I belong to. May I rebuild what I have broken and participate in the repairing the broken world I've inherited.

Tuesday, December 1, 2020

STRENGTHEN

 


Sometimes, the best way to #strengthen a bone or a body or a world-weary heart is to rest. 

I don't enjoy the necessity of slowing down. I don't enjoy the difficulty of even a short trip by car: hobble down the stairs, remove the boot, drive, park, put on the boot, hobble into my destination, repeat. But I am using my time more judiciously. I am deciding whether I truly need to leave the house. I am asking for help (daughters make great chauffeurs). I am slowing down so that my leg will strengthen.

May I have the grace to not just accept this time of healing, but relish it. Where do you need to rest to find strength?

Sunday, November 29, 2020

TENDER

 


This is a tender time
for those who wait for you

We wait with hope
intermingled with our despair
We wait impatiently
We wait urgency
for the wrongs to be made right

This is a tender time
for birth is ever tender
your newborn skin is red and papery
and we lay exhausted after
the exertion of birth

May we have strength in this tender time
to stay tender and not become callous
as we wait